FURROWS

Elven folklore....beautiful sands....
Silver hair..and ashen hands....
Twilight sunrise....daybreak sunset...
Screech owls cries.....depraved from nature's outset...


Emerald eyes....belonging to a witch's cat..
bewitched my soul....poured blue ink..in black....
Shadowed seductive sinews....walk all about.....
Death is calling me...all around....

A blinding light.....shows me the bleak line of the horizon....
IT IS THERE......
IT IS THERE.....
Not the path to heaven.....
Whoever said the light was towards heaven???
Folklore again?????????

Yet...
I BELIEVE.....
in...rainbows and trolls
in...dwarves and holes....
in...cities and streets..
in..rivers that meet
in...water and rain...
in...tears and pain...
in...nudity and lust...
in...yesterday and rust...
in...women and men.....
in....when...and then....
in... beauty and you....
but above else.....
in me and you....

LOSERS

who are the real losers???????????


The ones who betray....or the ones who get betrayed!!!!!!!

The answer to this the two of u can figure out......losers!!!!!!!

U can be together now.....

And leave me THE HELL ALONE!!!!!!!!!!

RAIN(Inside and outside)

The rains are here....... so is an abyss..............
loss....too much loss........i wonder................i wish i was in kotabagh..alone..to actually feel...the rain....delhi holds too much loss and pain..a sigh of relief the rain is from this wretched summer heat...even viva is miserable......
the point is..am i getting to the point?????

why??i cant ask anymore....
how could it all end like this..so many lies..so much of ugliness..even ive turned into a tyrant...a violent figure..who i dont recognise myself.....yet...in the mirror i see a resemblence of my former self...

.
does it even matter anymore?????

YES...............
give me back...

all the faith i had in you...yes i trusted you blindly

the memores we shared:-
the laughs..sitting outside gargi..laughing at all the cars
the beers..rosy pelican in the gypsy in thunderous rain
te way i cried..when u sold the gypsy
the heads we turned with my skirts..and "batchelors world...virgin style"
the first clubbing days to ghungroo and float
the mickeys and bindus...and jugnus
the ever lasting benson lights
the royal stags..topped with ice n soda
the times you held me....when i was getting over "him"
the tears....too many tears
the two amazing trips to kotabagh.we were one with the universal beauty of that place..
and yes...
to the fights
to all the times i fought for you,over you
saved u from being bashed up
and then bashing you up myself....

YES
i have left you with a wound.....a physical wound
but you have left me with a everlasting stabbing wound
for above all things....
you..were.."my friend"

i always used to say HATE is too strong a word....but i use it today..i hate the person you have become... never did i think you would betray me..in such a fuck all way...you were a beautiful soul...but now tainted with a ugly heart(and yes i do blame the company you are in)...but above all.... i blame you.......
never again...will i wanna see you..never again will i miss you........

.........to all the years........
we spent together............now WASTED!!!!!!!!!

to........
all those memories..those precious memories.......
now FAKE!!!!!!!

CLOSURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A TRIBUTE TO "A"(LOVE U FOREVER MOSQUITO)

FUNERAL BLUES

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

-- W.H. Auden

TRIANGLE(REN'S PIECE)

Relationships once pure ,
now tainted
.Emotions of disgust
... and some stay still
Boredom created a new beginning,
...Birth of a season, of love and guilt.
A moment of paradise for a season of fire.
..Promises of a hypocrite reveals truths of a liar
.Good intentions misunderstood to be loath full.
The irony, hilarious and mirthful.
Fire fuels opinions, principles of contradiction...
The abortion of amity due to lack of affection.
Then the smile of innocence slays the swine of pride ,
The night is lifeless, the sun shines bright.
Unwanted feelings,... the sun rains fire.
Realization of facts confirms fears so dire,
Denial of true feelings, confessions unspoken,
Inadequate, inferior, pathetic and broken.
This emotion, unsurpassed and unrivaled...
Stays awake, alive... slowly dying...
Murdered by ignorance.....
Reincarnated .....
hatred is thriving.
Desperate, faithless prayers to a powerful delusion,Beg for sanctuary,
a blissful illusion.
Let not come the night,
.....and the sun not fade..
Shade from a grove,
.... or dirt in a grave.

ONLY ASHES REMAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fire..within...
Fire...without.....
Only ashes remain.........

Red...is the sky.......
NO....orange is the sky......
alas...grey is the sky.........
only saying...........black is the sky......

Unkindled...pain.........
Only ashes.....remain......

Reassurance...long lost...........
Only ashes remain......

love...forlorn......
love...forgot..........
If it ever was............
Was it ever.....even for a flickering moment....
what i hoped.........

Jaded.........and.........broken..........
Sadness envoked.................
Shattered and strewn....
made of...witches potion of brew.....

I am....not what there is..........
nor.........what there was.........
but.....what there shall......never...ever.......be.........
for.............................
..........ONLY ASHES REMAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BACARDI

Since the alcohol level in my system is still very high!!!!!!!!!
i guess im gonna write all bull crap...sometimes letting loose n writing horse shit can be forgiven...
Last night was a very nostalgic night....went down memory lane..not good...given the circumstances..sharaab level was very high....
drunken A.M calls are the worst thing possible....landed up calling some one i missed..like helll....like the deserts miss the rain(curtesy..everything but the girl)
Made a royal fool of myself....but hey we all make mistakes..and sometimes.....shit happens!!!!!!!!
After..i think...a gazillion years i cried..and i cried...and i cried...........
and here i was under the impression that i was completely devoid of tears....i thought the water in me had run out.....i guess not!!!!!!!!!
Ive always been the sort of person who is alone even in a crowd....surrounded..yet so lonesome....but after a while.....i remember times...when i was happy..holding (your) hand....
oh lord!i m not going there.....remembering!!!!!!!

DAYLIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DARKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Daylight........clear as the......unknown........
spun...in a web of........ruins..

Thoughts unheard,
in a mirage...of...maddening dreams..........

Words unspoken,
in a tunnel....filled with intoxication........

Scars.....unseen.......
like...........
blanketing...dark clouds..........

The voices of...silence.......
are.......deafening..........

I am....beyond.....OBLIVION.....
I am...beyond......WEEPING DESPAIR......

There is...
darkness.....clear...as the ..unknown...

DAYLIGHT and DARKNESS.....
are.................
in UNISION.....ENTWINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE ONE WHO WALKS ALONE!!!!!!!!!

Rain ....fell down...........
with raging thunderstorms..............
depicting the thoughts in my head.........

My my mind.............
is like troubled waters..............
constantly.....playing...
an orchestra......of mixed feelings.............

Feelings of DESPAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For..........
......until............
the day the lamp expires...............
and tears....of sunset extinguish.the fire.

When....love has fled...........
and left me lone.............
till then.....
i'll be the one.....................
.....who walks............alone.....................

SO TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tooooooo many why's with me!!!!!!!!!!

"I thought that love would last forever..........................but............................................i was wrong"

As Chris Isaac said " Nobody loves NO ONE"


They say "Payback's a BITCH".......as you grow older you realise otherwise............
NAAH!!!!! it aint a bitch its just your godforsaken ego being bruised...........

Hmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!shoudnt be..............never be that weak to the human eye!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!

INNOCENT BLOOD

Recently,i went thru the worst phase.....lost a friend to depression....eventually he took his own life.....
Ive stopped questioning!!!!!!!!!!!period......

People are inhuman now-a-days.....since,my childhood dream was to become a vet(that never happened)...im an animal lover through and through.....i take care of most of the dogs in my colony.....
One night...this adorable black doggie....whos on my list...managed to drag herself till my door step...bleeding profusely from her mouth....the damn guard beat her up real bad.......
Little did he know....what was coming(wont go into details will just say...it was ugly and violent)

Now here comes the part where hipocracy is personified.......
in the form of a person.......Maneka Gandhi(a so called animal lover)


I went frantic trying to call her animal shelter....they flat out refused to send their ambulance
saying "madam kutta hie toh hai...marta hai toh marne doh"
This is the situation in this country.......no one cares!!!!!!

Breaks my heart....but im a hypocrite as well......im sayin these things......

but am i taking any action????????

By the way thanks rushil for helping me with kaali that fateful night!!!!!!!!!!!!

CRAP

Well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The grass is green....the sky is blue....

FREAK SO WHAT......dont we all know that

What i cant register is-

its not over.....why????? it should be....

MEMORIES DONT DIE.....THEY JUST FADE.......

WHHHHHHYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SMOKE!!!

A bleeding heart......
and streams of tears....
lock the path of...hope...deep down..

Silent cries....
for help....unheard...
no one to know her darkest fears....till now..

She sits...alone...
with her melencholy smile....
all the hurt and pain.....hidden inside...

A starry sky with a dull blue moon....
reflects her life...
enchanted.....with sadness....and gloom...

A silver tear...
rolled down...and made him cry....
when he saw....her only...lullaby

A mist of smoke blew out...her lips...
playing a tune of sorrowful bliss....

She's found her only friend....to cope...
until .....
her life blows away......
in a mist......
of smoke................