ONLY ASHES REMAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fire..within...
Fire...without.....
Only ashes remain.........

Red...is the sky.......
NO....orange is the sky......
alas...grey is the sky.........
only saying...........black is the sky......

Unkindled...pain.........
Only ashes.....remain......

Reassurance...long lost...........
Only ashes remain......

love...forlorn......
love...forgot..........
If it ever was............
Was it ever.....even for a flickering moment....
what i hoped.........

Jaded.........and.........broken..........
Sadness envoked.................
Shattered and strewn....
made of...witches potion of brew.....

I am....not what there is..........
nor.........what there was.........
but.....what there shall......never...ever.......be.........
for.............................
..........ONLY ASHES REMAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BACARDI

Since the alcohol level in my system is still very high!!!!!!!!!
i guess im gonna write all bull crap...sometimes letting loose n writing horse shit can be forgiven...
Last night was a very nostalgic night....went down memory lane..not good...given the circumstances..sharaab level was very high....
drunken A.M calls are the worst thing possible....landed up calling some one i missed..like helll....like the deserts miss the rain(curtesy..everything but the girl)
Made a royal fool of myself....but hey we all make mistakes..and sometimes.....shit happens!!!!!!!!
After..i think...a gazillion years i cried..and i cried...and i cried...........
and here i was under the impression that i was completely devoid of tears....i thought the water in me had run out.....i guess not!!!!!!!!!
Ive always been the sort of person who is alone even in a crowd....surrounded..yet so lonesome....but after a while.....i remember times...when i was happy..holding (your) hand....
oh lord!i m not going there.....remembering!!!!!!!

DAYLIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DARKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Daylight........clear as the......unknown........
spun...in a web of........ruins..

Thoughts unheard,
in a mirage...of...maddening dreams..........

Words unspoken,
in a tunnel....filled with intoxication........

Scars.....unseen.......
like...........
blanketing...dark clouds..........

The voices of...silence.......
are.......deafening..........

I am....beyond.....OBLIVION.....
I am...beyond......WEEPING DESPAIR......

There is...
darkness.....clear...as the ..unknown...

DAYLIGHT and DARKNESS.....
are.................
in UNISION.....ENTWINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE ONE WHO WALKS ALONE!!!!!!!!!

Rain ....fell down...........
with raging thunderstorms..............
depicting the thoughts in my head.........

My my mind.............
is like troubled waters..............
constantly.....playing...
an orchestra......of mixed feelings.............

Feelings of DESPAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For..........
......until............
the day the lamp expires...............
and tears....of sunset extinguish.the fire.

When....love has fled...........
and left me lone.............
till then.....
i'll be the one.....................
.....who walks............alone.....................

SO TELL ME!!!!!!!!!!!

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tooooooo many why's with me!!!!!!!!!!

"I thought that love would last forever..........................but............................................i was wrong"

As Chris Isaac said " Nobody loves NO ONE"


They say "Payback's a BITCH".......as you grow older you realise otherwise............
NAAH!!!!! it aint a bitch its just your godforsaken ego being bruised...........

Hmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!shoudnt be..............never be that weak to the human eye!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!

INNOCENT BLOOD

Recently,i went thru the worst phase.....lost a friend to depression....eventually he took his own life.....
Ive stopped questioning!!!!!!!!!!!period......

People are inhuman now-a-days.....since,my childhood dream was to become a vet(that never happened)...im an animal lover through and through.....i take care of most of the dogs in my colony.....
One night...this adorable black doggie....whos on my list...managed to drag herself till my door step...bleeding profusely from her mouth....the damn guard beat her up real bad.......
Little did he know....what was coming(wont go into details will just say...it was ugly and violent)

Now here comes the part where hipocracy is personified.......
in the form of a person.......Maneka Gandhi(a so called animal lover)


I went frantic trying to call her animal shelter....they flat out refused to send their ambulance
saying "madam kutta hie toh hai...marta hai toh marne doh"
This is the situation in this country.......no one cares!!!!!!

Breaks my heart....but im a hypocrite as well......im sayin these things......

but am i taking any action????????

By the way thanks rushil for helping me with kaali that fateful night!!!!!!!!!!!!

CRAP

Well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The grass is green....the sky is blue....

FREAK SO WHAT......dont we all know that

What i cant register is-

its not over.....why????? it should be....

MEMORIES DONT DIE.....THEY JUST FADE.......

WHHHHHHYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SMOKE!!!

A bleeding heart......
and streams of tears....
lock the path of...hope...deep down..

Silent cries....
for help....unheard...
no one to know her darkest fears....till now..

She sits...alone...
with her melencholy smile....
all the hurt and pain.....hidden inside...

A starry sky with a dull blue moon....
reflects her life...
enchanted.....with sadness....and gloom...

A silver tear...
rolled down...and made him cry....
when he saw....her only...lullaby

A mist of smoke blew out...her lips...
playing a tune of sorrowful bliss....

She's found her only friend....to cope...
until .....
her life blows away......
in a mist......
of smoke................